1 a.m.

Do remember when being up at 1am meant you were having an awsome night!?! I know I do, but those days are long gone! At 1am this morning I was up with a sick child coughing every breathe and just completely unable to sleep due to what has quickly become a pretty severe sinus infection. I heard him getting a little stuffy a couple days ago and I knew that this was coming since the weather is changing a bit and he is back in school with so many other kids and their germs but man, it seems to get so bad so quickly. He's very calm and gentle and I'm tired and feeling helpless (I mean I gave him albuteral, hyp saline, pulmozyme, Toby, nasanex, antibiotic nasal spray, mucinex, vicks vapor rub...is there anything I left out?) remembering how much we struggled with his sinuses last year and fearing the sinus surgery talk again. But we got up this morning and went to school, it is picture day go figure, and he seems so much better just by being upright and moving around but he's bound to crash do to the lack of sleep.
And to make things even better I called Dr. Han's office at CHKD at 8am and left a message on the appointment line saying I needed to get in before the weekend if possible for a sick visit, it is now after 11 and I have heard nothing. That's fustrating. When I called his Cf Dr. to see if they had some pull and could help get us into the ENT she suggested that I see his primary first. I mean no harm because I really love his primary who is here locally but my son needs to see a specialist. And if I take him to his primary that's exactly what they are going to tell me so I am wasting time and money and taking him out of school all for what?!
Sorry to rant but I am an over protective sleep deprived mother who does not like to be put off! I'm sure alot of you out there know what I'm feeling.